Being an Introvert + Having Anxiety = A Created Goal

Let's talk about having anxiety and, at the same time, being an introvert.

This can be a great but also dangerous combination. The pros are, that when dealing with anxiety, the best therapy can often be snuggling up in bed to draw, watch your favorite show or Youtubers, write, play some games, and just take time for yourself. This is my favorite pass time, and it has been ever since I could remember. As a kid, I never really found myself bored when I didn't have plans with friends because I was at peace just being with me, myself and I. 

While this can be nice for an introverted soul, if you deal with anxiety, it can be hard to juggle. Mainly because if you have too much time for yourself, your mind can go into overdrive and you can overthink a lot easier. 

Personally, last year was a busy year for me school-wise. I was focused on finishing general education, so I had a full class schedule in the Spring, I took a class during the first half of Summer, then had another full schedule in the Fall. On top of that, I worked quite a bit. So when I wasn't at school, doing homework or working, I took the time to relax and work on art and stories. I barely made plans with friends, making the year sort of uneventful. Also, I think I've become accustomed to just being an introverted hermit so much that making plans now causes me to get anxious, like, immediately. 

So I have this plan. I guess you could call it a New Year's Resolution. But basically, it's to just DO STUFF. I've adapted so much to the comfort zone of my room, that I haven't stepped out of it in a long time and the thought of doing so is unappealing. Even if I do make plans with friends, I'd rather them just come over to watch some movies or play some games (which is always great fun, but I think it's becoming too reoccurring). I've decided I need to push myself out of my comfort zone, and even if I feel uncomfortable going somewhere or if I'm nervous to hang out with people, I just need to DO IT. Because as far as we know, we only live once, and I need to make memories while I can with the people I love.

Of course I'll still take time for myself and my hobbies, because thats what makes me happy. But I also want to spend time with great people doing cool things, and have that make me happy again too. I don't want my anxiety to keep being a barrier that keeps me tied to my comfort zone. It may take some work, and I'll have my tough times where I get stuck in my head and it's harder for me to stay present. Times where I wish I just stayed in my hideout. But I see myself as a constant work in progress, and this is one of those obstacles I want to tackle better. I just have to remember I'm surrounded by people who are patient and understanding, and that great things are in store. Let's do this!

Much love,

Joely x